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Sometimes I'm envious of the Blessed Mother, because God conceived her without and sin and I wish he would have done the same for me. I know this desire is selfish and that I do not deserve such things. I can understand to a certain extent why this is so. But I can't seem to help but feel jealous. I prayed and asked God to take away my envy. I asked The Blessed Mother to intercede for me. Is this just a cross God wants me to bear? When I think about this it makes me not want to pray to God or Mary. What do I do? Prayers and advice much appreciated.
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Sometimes I'm envious of the Blessed Mother, because God conceived her without and sin and I wish he would have done the same for me. I know this desire is selfish and that I do not deserve such things. I can understand to a certain extent why this is so. But I can't seem to help but feel jealous. I prayed and asked God to take away my envy. I asked The Blessed Mother to intercede for me. Is this just a cross God wants me to bear? When I think about this it makes me not want to pray to God or Mary. What do I do? Prayers and advice much appreciated.
Well think of it this way. Have you lived a life with committing sin?

God knew that Mary would remain sinless, which is why she was chosen to be the mother of our Lord and Savior.

So, if you can answer yes to the question above, then you might have justification for being envious, 

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Well think of it this way. Have you lived a life with committing sin?

God knew that Mary would remain sinless, which is why she was chosen to be the mother of our Lord and Savior.

So, if you can answer yes to the question above, then you might have justification for being envious, 

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I know that my envy is not justified, which is why I don't WANT to be envious, I just don't how to NOT be envious.
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I know that my envy is not justified, which is why I don't WANT to be envious, I just don't how to NOT be envious.
I just told you.

Examine your own life. Have you lived a life without committing sin?

If not, then you know why God didn't choose you


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I just said a prayer for you. May Mary give you her heart and dispositions. God bless you.
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Where to start? How can you be envious of Our Lady for conceiving without sin, surely you understand that it was the great miracle needed for the Incarnation, and that had it happened to anyone else then there would have been nothing special about her. Perhaps you are mistaking envy for wishing that you didn't have to struggle with sin?
God has granted us a great blessing in allowing us to struggle with sin, it means that we can share in his victory over sin in a personal way. Yes we struggle, yes we fail and yes we despair but did Christ not fall 3 times on the way to Calvary, Did he not suffer humiliation and pain? I suggest that you read the Gospels with regard to the passion and do the stations of the cross, then you can see that Christs victory over sin and death was not a stroll down the lane, it was beset with hardship, pain and obstacles. Once you realize the pain and misery of the passion then you can see that our own struggle is also hard, difficult and long, just like Christ's. Then you can see struggling with sin as a joyous pursuit of salvation, an intimate encounter with some of Our Lords suffering and a manifestation of the eternal battle we must all endure to reach Heaven. Be at peace my dear friend and remember that Our Lord is beside you carrying His Cross while you carry yours.
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Sometimes I'm envious of the Blessed Mother, because God conceived her without and sin and I wish he would have done the same for me. I know this desire is selfish and that I do not deserve such things. I can understand to a certain extent why this is so. But I can't seem to help but feel jealous. I prayed and asked God to take away my envy. I asked The Blessed Mother to intercede for me. Is this just a cross God wants me to bear? When I think about this it makes me not want to pray to God or Mary. What do I do? Prayers and advice much appreciated.
Perhaps it is not so much envy for your part, but a desire to model Mary's life in your own life. If that is the case, such a desire is a holy one, and originates from the impulses of the Holy Spirit. Perhaps even Mary, by her intercession, is calling you to a greater desire to become like her!

Also, note that Mary has trodden the path the Church -- all of the faithful -- is to take. In virtue of Baptism and the gift of the Holy Spirit, we are, through our free and loving response to the Spirit, to be healed, elevated, and perfected through sharing in God's own supernatural life. Faith in Christ and love for him sanctifies and justifies us. We are, then, truly transformed and re-created by the gift of his Spirit. In a manner of speaking, the Spirit is leading you one the same path Mary walked.

Yet we continue to be tempted and we struggle with sin. Mary was, to be sure, tempted also. And we must not think that she never struggled, for she retained her free will. She was not an "obedience robot."

In a manner of speaking, you are this moment setting out on the path Mary has walked. And God walks with you! It is possible to stop sinning, although you may fall occasionally. While it's not easy, for the road to eternal life is narrow and difficult, remember that the Holy Spirit who dwells within you as a temple is always there to support and strengthen you.

Last, be sure to avail yourself of frequent confession: the grace you receive there makes all the difference.
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Perhaps it is not so much envy for your part, but a desire to model Mary's life in your own life. If that is the case, such a desire is a holy one, and originates from the impulses of the Holy Spirit. Perhaps even Mary, by her intercession, is calling you to a greater desire to become like her!

Also, note that Mary has trodden the path the Church -- all of the faithful -- is to take. In virtue of Baptism and the gift of the Holy Spirit, we are, through our free and loving response to the Spirit, to be healed, elevated, and perfected through sharing in God's own supernatural life. Faith in Christ and love for him sanctifies and justifies us. We are, then, truly transformed and re-created by the gift of his Spirit. In a manner of speaking, the Spirit is leading you one the same path Mary walked.

Yet we continue to be tempted and we struggle with sin. Mary was, to be sure, tempted also. And we must not think that she never struggled, for she retained her free will. She was not an "obedience robot."

In a manner of speaking, you are this moment setting out on the path Mary has walked. And God walks with you! It is possible to stop sinning, although you may fall occasionally. While it's not easy, for the road to eternal life is narrow and difficult, remember that the Holy Spirit who dwells within you as a temple is always there to support and strengthen you.

Last, be sure to avail yourself of frequent confession: the grace you receive there makes all the difference.
Mary certainly must have had every opportunity to sin. Her life, so I've read, was quite difficult, what with being found pregnant without wedlock, having to escape with her life to Egypt, giving birth in a manger, then having to watch as her beloved Son was executed. What a lady! God chose to perform a miracle in her by saving her from sin from the moment of birth, knowing that she would eventually be the means by which God would enter the world to save it. I'm sure she struggled with all kinds of emotions from doubt to extreme joy.

Something I have yet to understand is what is the difference between Mary and Zechariah? They both did not understand the coming birth of their respective children yet Zechariah was struck dumb but Mary was not. I hope someone can explain.
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Something I have yet to understand is what is the difference between Mary and Zechariah? They both did not understand the coming birth of their respective children yet Zechariah was struck dumb but Mary was not. I hope someone can explain.
Zechariah doubted God's power, Mary did not, but simply wanted confirmation of how she would become pregnant, since she had (according to tradition) vowed virginity.
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LoveGod102 it is okay. I knew a lady who once felt the same way. She is a good Catholic woman, educated in a Catholic school, active and honorable and even she went through a trial in her life where she felt jealous of Our Lady. After reading a book (I do not remember the name of the book) she realized these feelings were a disordered desire to be honored and loved by another as Our Lady is. Turns out it was a disordered desire for love, respect, honor, etc that we have for the Blessed Virgin. Try lighting a candle in front of a statue of Our Lady and ask for her guidance, forgiveness and maybe you could even adopt her as your spiritual mother. Ask her to help you with this.

P.S. Since the Catholic lady found out the underlying reasoning behind her jealousy it has not been an issue - I suspect she even has a stronger devotion to the Blessed Virgin after this experience too.
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Sometimes I'm envious of the Blessed Mother, because God conceived her without and sin and I wish he would have done the same for me. I know this desire is selfish and that I do not deserve such things. I can understand to a certain extent why this is so. But I can't seem to help but feel jealous. I prayed and asked God to take away my envy. I asked The Blessed Mother to intercede for me. Is this just a cross God wants me to bear? When I think about this it makes me not want to pray to God or Mary. What do I do? Prayers and advice much appreciated.

i guess you don't know much about spiritual warfare

2 Corinthians 10:5 KJV - Casting down imaginations, and every ...
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/...%3A5...‎

Casting down imaginations,

and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God,

and bringing into captivity every thought to the.

i guess it's time 4 you to learn you really are in a war .. there is plenty of info available -- to become a mature deciblel--

learn how to tell the difference between

1..your thoughts and --2.. demon suggestions--3.. and the Holy Spirit--

-- generally if you get upset -- it not the Holy Spirit-- Good Luck !!

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